Monday, May 12, 2008

I never got into Sex and the City, FYI.

This morning i put Judah on a plane with my mother. It wasn't that difficult for me, though I have been walking around in a melancholy state for the whole day and night. IT is quiet here and although I seriously dig that this is a BREAK! it really just feels like the party is someplace else. I miss my little Party.

Ofcourse I shopped all day and went to a movie with Chris tonight. Like I am a single girl with a boyfriend.

Now that the semester is over I feel incredulous. I feel doubtful that i will be able to make much of anything out of myself. I feel deluded, maybe delusional.. I also feel certain something good will come of my efforts, though they may not seem like so very much to anyone else. They have felt monumental to me.

In other more cheerful news: we get to go on a mini-vacation. We'll essentially be going to pick up Judah, but we'll get to spend a night in Dallas. I have lots of fond memories of Dallas, places i still think about haunting, and I am readier than ready to go to La Madeleine.

It'll be the first time Chris and I vacation without Judah.

Chris and i dated in Dallas. we had our first date at La Mad, ate BBQ at Pappas Brothers, shopped for too expensive groceries at EatZis. We strolled Highland Park Mall, I lost my purse in its little movie theater. I fell in love with Maggiano's and PF Chang's and my boyfriend in Dallas.

I'll try to post some pics.

7 comments:

Becky said...

what a great description of Judah -- it fits Sam, too -- he's the party.

i get that feeling. that feeling that says striving is too much -- settling would be smarter. i get it everytime i submit.

i envy that you have a city as backdrop to your dating memories.

Sandra said...

The first time I sent Erin away for more than a night, my heart deflated. I missed her so much! She's the party too. :)
We used to go to Dallas to see Dawson McAllister. I always loved it there.
Enjoy your vacation and try not to think to much about the bigger things in life. Sometimes the small things can remind us most of what we want. All your trying won't be for nothing.

Kristen said...

Blow Dallas a kiss for me. I miss it every day.

E. Michelle said...

you all are the best.

Erin said...

Oh goodness...

You have just put the thought of La Madeleine's tomato bisque in my head. I may not make it through the day...

cv said...

Have a wonderful vacation for grownups! The last time I was in Dallas was about a year or two ago for their massive wholesale gift market, and had dinner at this marvelous hole-in-the-wall middle eastern place....

You are going to make it, and you deserve to. You deserve good things and to be rewarded for the hard work you do.

Kristen said...

BTW, how was seeing your mom?

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